This book explores a cohort of ultra-orthodox Jews in the greater New York area who, while maintaining ties to their observant communities, secretly pursue secular knowledge both online and in-person. Ayala Fader conducted extensive ethnographic research, building trust with mostly young married individuals who navigate the complexities of leading "double lives." These individuals seek alternative social spaces to explore ethical questions and personal fulfillment, often facing significant stress in their relationships with spouses and children. The spectrum of beliefs among these "double-lifers" ranges from those who remain religiously observant yet open-minded to those who embrace atheism. The rabbinical leadership is aware of this trend and views unfiltered internet access as a significant threat to community cohesion, even more so than historical events like the Holocaust. Fader examines how ultra-orthodox communities respond to these double-lifers, including a Torah-based "religious therapy" approach. This therapy, conducted by trained community members, combines modern psychiatric principles with ultra-orthodox beliefs, addressing doubts and skepticism as signs of emotional distress.
